Someone Would Know

It's a brand new song that was written and will be recorded in a Studio in Daugavpils

Mediterranea

Across the sky
A jet trail following
The wish that I was on the plane
On my way to some out destination
Undiscovered never mentioned
Sipping on the high of expectation
I awaken to the shade

Maybe it's the rain of town
One you wanted to leave behind
When the winter's on the ground
If you ever wonder

We believe, in the cold grey lights we dream
There's a place for us
Mediterranea
Yes we believe, where the white sands touch the sea
There's space for us
Mediterranea

I'm trading air, for touch down ecstasy
Arriving there in a wave of heat
Lying in the beach tequila mayhem
Summer of all suburban daydreams
Waiting for a look , the invitation
I awaken to the shade

Maybe it's the rain of town
One you wanted to leave behind
When the winter's on the ground
If you ever wonder

We believe in the cold grey lights we dream
There's a place for us
Mediterranea
Yes we believe where the white sands touch the sea
There's space for us
Mediterranea

I imagine
Summer fashion, see yourself in another town
Let the sunshine out of your mind
A bed of light to lay you down

We believe in the cold grey lights we dream
There's a place for us
Mediterranea
Yes we believe where the white sands touch the sea
There's space for us
Mediterranea

And we believe
Yes we believe
There's a place for us
Mediterranea

A lot to answer for

I came over your place today
In a roundabout sort of way
Nothing holding me
Just the company
Gentle giving the afternoon

Don't ever try to be any more
Vika, you've got a lot to answer for
You unlocked some of the doors
To my soul

And I don't see you for awhile
Thinking of you will make me smile
You never bother me with responsibility
Misbehaving in candlelight

Don't ever try to give any more
Vika, you've got a lot to answer for
You got me waking up wise.. to the world

Trust you to get caught up in somebody's war
You'll come out of it all in time, I'm sure
Just remember what friends were put here for
Vika, you've got a lot to answer for

And I know that you're gonna call
If you need me
When you need me...
If you need me...

Love is Life

Away from you,
Away from here
Away from you.
Stay for me.

Baby, I'm really sorry, to break your dream, when it's so early.
Headlights, on the windowpane,
They're getting lost, in the light of day.

Tomorrow is today, and soon my ship will sail
Away from here.. to walk a howling sea lane.
Stay - for me, your love is life , your love's the best

Baby, just hear my story, before I leave, before we write the end
Standing, across the ocean stream,
I'll need to know, I'll need your faith til then.


Tomorrow and today, you keep my landfall safe.


Away from here (away from here), to walk a howling sea lane,
(away from you)
Stay for me (stay for me)
 I need your love to land.
Away from here (away from here)
to walk a howling sea lane (away from you)
Stay for me (stay for me), your love is alive, your love's the best.

(chorus)

i'll see you then
i'll see you then..

why I left......

Bullying was a main reason why i left. which now can be translated to harassment. but there was one who made my life impossible due to the fact that the girl he liked the most was in love with me.

 I guess I was a victim of envy, hatred and discrimination. I was very shy and quiet about it, but after being freed from duties that forced me to be in silence, I became a "blasphemer" for being outspoken and speaking of corruption i witnessed in a catholic school.

what I remember was that I wanted to be a teamplayer and a good student, but jealousy from others made my life horrible. Especially when i was declared enemy for defending a girl whom a group of swimming team members tried to abuse her. for a long time I was blacklisted, this is why I left for many years.

violence has always been a burden to me, but to that ex-colleague it was less than air.

guess who's who on these clips and you'll understand what happened

 flashback
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMERCCCjk7o


so, something like this happened. in a reunion
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-mNZI6iuVg

Evergreen (2012)

feeling alive in this small world
feeling the sun of acapulco
ive no words left to say

is that all in this lifetime
i dont want to return

Evergreen in this lifetime
now im gone where one cant follow
can live without this faith
at least in this past time

now i dont want to return

(guitar, cello)

your love brings me life!

(chorus)

and i need you,
in the then and the now of our days
i know you're out there
im just a simple man in this world
so what else is there to say?

i believe you
your sign just keeps my hope alive
somewhere out there
you're a lifeline to my little world


your love is alive
so alive
you love is alive

(guitar)

Falling Angel

***its a song about falling in love for the 1st time and it's an anti-religion that i dont want to believe in anyone other than the one i care for **  (1999)

From this cloud where I hang dangle in the blue
I spy you all tiny creatures on the ground below
For my being reckless got me strung up in the sky
But love is flawed now see the loneliest cry
Cut my cord now, better then, im better off to die

Here am I you're a falling angel dangle in the blue
I'm yours, my angel and I wish that I could be with you

It's my time all I have, for my time is up
Knowing that the one I love is that which I can't touch (woman which i can touch, ooh)
So I watch your fragile beauty changing in the sun
Love is flawed now see the loneliest cry
Cut my cord now better then better off to die

Well here am I your falling angel dangle in the blue
I'm your angel how I wish that I could be with you..
Falling angel dangled in the blue
I'm your angel and I wish that I could be with you...

I believe in you... I don't believe it all but I believe in you
I don't believe it all but I belive in you
I don't believe it all but I believe in you
I don't believe it all

Writer's Block and The New Chapters Ahead .

After living in europe for.... 7 years , I got a letter this morning from an american former bandmate about reuniting the band I left many many years ago.

im sure at this point in my life I am enjoying the new challenges, losses, gains ahead as life is just a set of random things that happen and one has to address them with class.  The notion of returning to a band that disbanded due to musical differences and chaotic structures hasn't dangled in my head since the day I left. Plus, we're at an age that most of us who were part of this magical chapter in our teens that family and one's world matters more than attempting to revive what once was, and perhaps never will return.

Another issue, is the LONNNNNNNG Distance and how profitable is it for me to go to  a studio to people i havent seen in years and probably have nothing in common. So, No. I will not be part of the band reunion. Tho im thankful about the offer, but at this point in my life.

Perhaps i'll return to the states, but that decision i leave to  someone special in my life :P :)

Livro De La Vida

Vika Vikachu

Tu tiempo es un vidrio
tu amor me hace vivir,
mi cuerpo una aguja
tu mente un tapiz.
Si las sanguijuelas no pueden herirte
no existe una escuela que enseñe a vivir.

El ángel vigía descubre al ladrón
le corta las manos,
le quita la voz,
la gente se esconde
o apenas existe,
se olvida del hombre,
se olvida de Dios.

Miro alrededor,
heridas que vienen,
sospechas que van
y aquí estoy
pensando en el alma que piensa
y por pensar no es alma,
desarma y sangra.

Hey Girl (2010, Jurmala)

Hey Boy Hey Hey Girl Hey
Hey Boy Hey Hey Girl
[Repeat]

I've done some dirty deeds
But I've never done
A dirty deed to you
Years in the wilderness
'Till you found me
And gave me something true

Hey world, we've lucked out
All the other people they can only stare
That girl, she's so beautiful
Sleeping in the chair

People change but we're still here
We set sail without a destination
Weathered storms along the way
Face to face with temper
And temptation

Hey world, we've lucked out
All the other people they can only stare
That girl, she's so beautiful
Walking over here

I've found what heart is
It's being next to you
Without a single breath
Between us (between us)
I've found what heart is
It's being next to you
Without a single breath
Between us (between us)


Hey girl, you've lucked out
All the other girls they can only stare
That boy, he's so beautiful
Sleeping in the chair

I've found what heart is,
It's being next to you.
Without a single breath
Between us (between us)
I've found what heart is,
It's being next to you.
Without a single breath
Between us (between us)

Just one of those days (3/2010, NYC)

Suddenly it all looks so familiar
Gone and wrecked it like I always do
Don't you know it?
Life is out to kill 'ya
But you still go getting on with it

Seen better times than right now
But I'm not running away
No nothing's gonna bring me down

It's just been one of those days
I'm not the only one

They can drag me to the gates of hell now
There's nothing left but I'm still hanging in
Not for me, ain't no final showdown
I'm too shattered to do anything

Seen better times than right now
But I'm not running away
'Cause nothing's going to bring me down

It's just been one of those days
I'm not the only one feeling this way
And I'm not sorry

I'm not the only one feeling this way
And I'm not sorry
For running away

Still Breathing (5/2005)

Home, it's not brick or stone
Or comfort in the firelight,
Not in that sense anyway.
Dreams, if only I had known
But these things always seem
So much clearer at a distance.

I'm walking out of this town
I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there.
I'd burn the memories to the ground.
I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there again.

Words only could break that ring
You know the words still sting
So much harder than the blows ever did.
Heart, though it's hot and violent
My head is cool and quiet
As the ashes that fall from the sky

I'm walking out of this town
I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there.
I burn the memories to the ground.
I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there again.

Now, I know this shattered feeling,
Trembled but still breathing.

I'm just waiting for a good day
I'm walking out of this town

I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there.
I've burn the memories to the ground.
I'm never going back there,
I'm never going back there again.
Never going back there again,
I'm never going back there again....





*about leaving nyc, about things that happened in 1997-2001.*

chains

An hour since the sundown
The ghosts are creepin in
Are gathering around me
Like starlings in the wind

Dark shapes gather round

Voices like my brothers
Are whispering to me
But I don't know these others
Who want to set me free

Come home you're out of time

But the life cannot let go
It's a chain cuts across my soul
Anchoring in this world

I put my hand into the flame
Burning but I feel no pain
Don't speak, don't speak my name
Hold on to this life of chains

The door is standing open
But I'm too tired to be afraid
My whole life's in this moment
I've been fighting all the way

Just need a little more time

Cuz the life just can't let go
It's a chain cuts across my soul
Anchoring in this world

I put my hand into the flame
Burning but I feel no pain
Don't speak, don't speak my name
Hold on to this life of chains

Happy New Year! 2012

January 1, 2012: "Too Bad You're So Beautiful"

Well, we're back and we're not going anywhere!
Christmas the song "Too Bad You're So Beautiful" was debuted in Stacija 101 live. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7U2xF0iggs
Available on Itunes! :)

August 2010

Hell, I'm here again
I must have flower in my brain
The same mistakes I made before
CozI'm a hostage to that face of yours

Take me on your bed
I watch you smoke my cigarette
I wish I knew what's in your head
I could be more than just your friend

Too bad you're so beautiful... and so-
Complicated!
I must be a deluded fool but still-
Fascinated!
Too bad you're so beautiful when I'm--
King of nothing!
This can only go one way

Ice Queen on top of the mountain
Give me the freeze, she's twenty and counting
 My looney dreams, she drives crazy taxi!
 But it's not your problem, when you're above it all

Take me on your bed
I want to stroke your sleepy head
I wish that I was with instead
of being your weekday friend

Too bad you're so beautiful and so
Complicated!
I must be a stupid fool but still
Fascinated!
Too bad you're so beautiful when I'm
King of nothing
This can only go one way

I'm the king of nowhere
Lives a random life
In the lone world I'm here to entertain
When it starts to rain
I'm a lucky man... when i'm with you!

(Chorus)

Ahhhhhh
Too bad, it's too bad you're instant fabulous
Vika Oh-oh-oh-ohhhh

Beautiful, umm-uh-umm
Beautiful, it's too bad
Just too bad, it's too bad
Beautiful, ohh-ohh
It's too bad
Just too bad, it's too bad

Nobody Knows (7-31-2012)

Creeping slowly like a bad connection
Closing up the shutters on perception
How long
Alone in the dark
Til you turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times
You turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times

I dread this moment of indecision
The space between us is my subtle prison
Held fast within these walls

You turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times
You turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times

And then it finds me
But I never chose it
I'm seeing colours inside the music
I'm touching the top of the world

You turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times
You turn it all around
Nobody knows
How many times...

Noboby knows...