Return Return? That lingering question

So waking up this morning in cool breezed autumn located somewhere in Europe, I received a 'Carta Formalis" about an old band I was part of to be part of a reunion concert.

Im sure some of u heard me say at an interview ages ago "going back to your former band is like sleeping with your ex", and to an extend it's kinda true...We're in our late 20's havent seen these gents since.... 2004? When the band broke up , the creative differences were just musically, but now that we're all (some of us) have priorities in our personal lives and we all live in different parts of the states (and I live abroad for that matter), how can we possibly have things in common when so many things happened..... I recall the musical class of reggaeton vs pop rock not ending well....

But nonetheless I won't dismiss it, I think there's a possibility to contribute in a reunion project, I think the Mrs would love to see NYC for the first time and it would be fun.

When? I don't know yet, I'm too happy in Europe to return.....maybe when the family wants to visit the U.S and im singled out democratically lol

V

Just forget me
Try to forget we ever met
Leave that memory right there on the shelf
Pick it up and use it later on
When you've forgot just what we had

Deny me
Leave me in the corner marked refuse
And I'll try to deny you not surprise you
You won't be seeing me in your drugstore
I'll stay away you'll find another lover
To keep you in the style you so deserve

And that would take me out of the equation
I'll even bring a friend along
If you need some more persuading

Then you'll see a side of me (rpt 4x)
That's like the other men

I'm just restless
Caught up in the mood of my times
Trying to reach right through the fog
Walking forward into I know not what
But then that's true for everyone

Don't try me
When you've made your mind up that I'm a prick
I had to see if we could fit
Don't want to anymore

then you'll see a side of me (rpt 4x)
That's like the other men

winter

So come the evening
I'm out on the dunes
Looking for a token, something to prove
All I remember is more than a flame
In my fantasy, fire

Whatever I've done to receive
Whatever I need to redeem
Whatever you say
Even if I wait a lifetime

I know, I swear
If you leave a light on, if you leave a light on for me
I'll come there
You can leave a light on for me

In comes the morning
I'm stood in my track
Looking at the reasons for me to head back
So unexpected, the kindness you've shown
That I will not forget it

Whatever I've done to receive
Whatever I need to redeem
Whatever you say
Even if I wait a lifetime

I know, I swear
If you leave a light on, if you leave a light on for me
I'll come there
You can leave a light on for me

You breathe the will into the weak
And coach the cage bird to fly free
You ease the lost cause out of me
With your sweet hand to bring me home
I'm not alone, oh, oh, oh

I know, I swear
If you leave a light on, if you leave a light on for me
I'll come there
You can leave a light on for me

I know, I swear
If you leave a light on, if you leave a light on for me
I'll come there
You can leave a light on for me

2002-2004 The Reunion and Breakup

I think i've been asked a dozen times about what really happened to F.A and I think it's time to clear things of what happened to the scene and the situation that led to the demise.

It was sometime july of 2001 that the band reunited after 4 years of distance and separation that we strive to contain the formula we created in 1997. The was a little hype and motivation to bring back the forgotten glorious energy we once produced as a unit....but it was sometime on january 2002 that we learned on our first studio session the spark and inspiration had changed and lost in time.

I was never satisfied with the demos and the energy put into it, it seemed that the band was trying to find sense of what was gone many years ago but it wasn't there. The people held responsible for the termination of the project were supportive this time around, but the irony is that we didn't had the interest to work despite the apologetic movement of the damage done by management. The Management is largely at fault for causing the breakup, and finally reacting the failure of my solo project along with the other projects the rest headed, a lot of qualitative/tacit knowledge was lost from the peers who were supporting us artistically. To be honest, I felt that I should've abandoned management from day 1 and if i had the guts i would've told them to fuck off. The band I once knew was different and I saw life much different than I did 4 years ago and I wasn't the optimistic guy after so many fights and mental harassment caused at the private school i was forced to attend..Sure, it was easy for management to say "just pick up a guitar and play and now you have a great song!".... sure but who was going to listen to it since we lost momentum and lacked the social marketing influence that management neglected?  Overall, the waning friendship that the band had was all that kept the flame alive until december of 2004.... It was then that one of them decided to part ways to pursue a religious call, whereas the rest  just wanted to keep music as a hobby and forget the goal altogether. I was finishing my studies and felt that the time was right to leave NY forever since a lot of damage was done and fixing my social network was impossible.

There was a lot of creative tension that December of 2004... One member's mind was in making money out of religion, the other one about drinking and moshing, another wanted a girlfriend so bad, another wanted to continue his successful solo project, another just wanted to keep everyone together and party as a team every weekend, and as for me.... I didn't recognize these people I once considered best friends. Having lost complete interest in the writing process, we all ended arguing whether we should abandon rock and go for Reggaeton. I was completely against it and said "this is the end for me" and that's what I think started a chain reaction of leavers on this musical mission.

What I learned that day was that bands needed to be together constantly in order not to lose the chemistry. Artistic illiterates will never understand that quality process of creating art, which was why I constantly threatened to leave NY and pursue life under my own conditions. 

The following year I graduated and left NY, with optimism that my life will be better if I run things my way... The mission to re-establish the opportunities I once lost could be re-gained in Europe. And  I think to a certain extend that goal was achieved.

Here in the now

The waves that silences break come again, one by one
I lay awake and I count til I drown
Turn up the room it�s getting too loud
I know I don�t have to say it
Pick up and move and go find some new ground
Somewhere I know I can make it

But I won�t give up
when I want it enough
No I won�t give up
Anything, anyway, anyone, anyday
Cause I figured it out
Here and the now takes me day by day

Will you come out tonight
Will you back out, will you put up a fight
Turn me around and make everything
Make me normal from now on

Erased everyone I�ve replaced
In the end they�re all gone
The faces all fade as the time passes by
What could I do I was waiting for you
Grown sick and tired of faking
Give me those eyes when I give you the truth
Finally here for the taking

But I won�t give up
When I want it enough
No I won�t give up
Anything, anyway, anyone, anyday
Cause I figured it out
Here and the now takes me day by day

Will you come out tonight
Will you back down, will you put up a fight
Turn me around and make everything right
Make me normal from now on

Hey will you come out tonight
Will you back down, will you put up a fight
Turn me around and make everything right
Make me normal from now on

I�ve figured it out here and the now
Takes me day by day

Hey will you come out tonight
Will you back down will you put up a fight
Turn me around and make everything right
Make me normal from now on

Hey will you come out tonight
Will you back down will you put up a fight
Turn me around and make everything right
Make me normal from now on

Make me normal from now on
Make me normal from now on
Make me normal from now on