the perils of reviving developmental hell projects

it was a tough weekend, it was great to see old friends and new friends along the way. there's a forth coming project i will be involved in and that would be bringing me back to the music.

i got a hold of demos and from 2008-2010, many of the tracks sound very very promising, I wonder why I left those incomplete tracks forgotten. 2013 so far has been a road with no destination, a link to the past, and a re-assessment of what I want in the future. I think the most moving moment was the big question of how I handled things.Some friends have really raised a lot of issues I didn't want to answer and some where just plain disappointing. But I'm enjoying my peace time, I am slowly putting musical ideas again with the support of my assistant and now potential idea partner.

What I do know is this, there's no point of going back to the past, I can't be that charming kid with wits that had a leadership ego nor am I the captain nor the president of different clubs anymore like I did in the Uni days. So the new music might be reworked stuff, but enhanced. Enhanced will the be key note for this year. It was good to be praised by ladies in the dance floor recently but my mind is now in zen mode "party like a rock star, live like a monk" and I really don't regret it because many things were lived already and really not all was to be proud of, at least for me. Im no Josh to be surrounded by many women, that's like being a quagmire on everything, and that's just isn't my style...never was and never liked pro's in my circle anyway.

I think it's time to show the demos most of my inner circle enjoyed and why there was/is much expected from me. Then in 2008, I was liberated (to say the least) and met someone who would be an inspiration from then on, and those themes are there on those demos. I think the last set of songs I wrote on January will come out the mid of this year when i get a chance to record it in a studio.

And a last surprise is that I am writing and drawing the script and storyline on the remaking of a classic NES video game.

Also This year my old project "viper studios" will be released on itunes with a set of 11 songs. Even tho most of you don't know what it is , I will be uploading 2 songs. It may not be to everyone's liking but it was meant to be played for some TV series background music form of material.

strange

it's strange how one appreciates someone who has acted like a best friend for 4 months be so cool compared to a cold and heartless person you've known for 4 to 5 years...

credentials to qualify:

1) must speak russian
2) must treat gf disrespectful
3) drink only vodka
4) and be rude
5) and have nothing else to talk about other than internet memes
6) must have a desire to live in UK so then possibly move to germany
7) YOLO at adventure whilst hypocritically claiming to search someone stable
8) must have money



yeah , and that's from someone who claims to have values.


http://youtu.be/VwSaldFJofM

Here and The Now

The waves that silences break come againone by oneLay awake and we count til we're out
Turn up the room it's getting too loudI know you don't have to say itPick up and move and go find some new groundSomewhere I know we can make it
But I won't give up when I want you enoughNo I won't give upAnything, anyway, anyone, anyday
Cause I figured it outHere and the now takes me day by day
Will you come out tonightWill you back down, will you put up a fightTurn things around let's make everything rightLet's be normal from now on
Erased everyone I have replacedIn the end they're all goneThe faces all fade as the time passes by
What could I do? I was waiting for youGrown sick and tired of fakingStare me those eyes when I give you the truthFinally here for the taking
But I won't give upWhen I want you enoughNo I won't give upAnything, anyway, anyone, anydayCause I figured it outHere and the now takes me day by day
Will you come out tonightWill you back down, will you put up a fightTurn things around and make everything rightLet's be normal from now on
Hey will you come out tonightWill you back down, will you put up a fightTurn things around let's make everything rightLet's be normal from now on
I've figured it out here and the nowTakes me Day by Day
Hey will you come out tonightWill you back down, will you put up a fightTurn things around let's make everything rightLet's be normal from now onLet's be normal from now on Let's be normal from now on Let's be normal from now on.....

2013 - Is yet to be written!

Happy New year y'all :)
I hope you all had a groovy year.

2012 came and went, it was a hard working first quarter with a smooth summer return to england while learning to accept changes in some personal things.

Some made a hype that the  year was the year to end the world and all but to me as well as the rest of people who don't believe in superstition just sat back and enjoyed the times for what they're worth.


Also a great highlight was my career growth, for the first time I began to lead an ensemble of talented professionals and befriended many along the way, I wish my granny could've seen how I am leading when all my life I was just an apprentice. But it paid off to learn from mentors, but I never knew the day would come for me. After all, in the states I was just a "minority". There's days I'd like to go on vacation and rest for a while in the countryside.

Living in northern Europe was an epiphany that enforced me to focus on a country that appreciated my abilities; whether it's artistically, professionally and personal. This time my return appears to be permanent and the friends lost have been regained while completely new and unexpected friendships appeared out of the midst. It was a tough time to accept and letting go opportunities that felt to be very assuring but at the same time an old friend's return was very necessary to keep the inspiration going.

The last days of 2012 were amazing and I feel 2013 will be greater.

Whatever with the past has gone, The best is always yet to come.