challenges ahead

so the showdown has begun...

a relative once told me that "you're on you own"  would become true sooner or later.
it's really strange how some silly palm readings would become very prophetic years later.
my reactions and actions seemed all calculated
so whatever brings these next few weeks, then i will do my best but somehow destined to lose.
the departure of someone i cared the most would be less distraction, and the necessary return of someone was also foreseen.
If all of this has finally happened, then who was the child.....?

Im aware I will lose so I left a guide explaining many things I tried to cover.

Vika, it seems fate puts us to work together once again.

Hello Stalker!

Hello David! Enjoy the used car.

The Sun Doesn't Shine Forever

At the end of the rainbow
Found each other there
Strange, we never thought the colours would fade

Be easy to walk
But it's much harder to stay
Why, oh why, are we reckless today?

You and I
Got to hold on together
Because in this life
Maybe the sun doesn't shine forever

Could say that I'm sorry
You say that i'm the only one to blame
Anger seems to dissolve into tears
Been so many good times..
Not only despair
Somehow we'll find the love we can share

You and I
Got to hold on together
Because in this life
Maybe the sun doesn't shine forever

You and I
Make this life for each other
Because I believe
We've got enough for when the sun doesn't shine
You and I
Got to hold on together
Because in this life
Maybe the sun doesn't shine forever

A new chapter

Letting go a loved one is better than to suffer that one is not worthy for them....

I really loved that woman, but the backstabbing revelation made it clear that I was right about her all along.

I should've known

 http://youtu.be/aFMdSoiuvno

I should've known that it would end this way
I should've known there was no other way
Didn't hear your warning
Til my heart gone dead

I should've known
Look at the shape you're in
I should've known
But I don't write back
One thing is for certain
As I'm standing here
I should've known

Lay your hands in mine
Heal me one last time
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart so dead

I should've  known
I was inside of you
I shoulda known
There was that side of you
Came without a warning
Caught me unaware

I shoulda known
I've been here before
I shoulda known
Don't want it anymore
One thing is for certain
I'm still standing here
I shoulda known

Lay your hands in mine
Heal me one last time
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart in death

No I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart in debt
I shoulda known

Maybe you were right
Didn't want a fight
I shoulda known
Couldn't see the signs
Couldn't take your lie
I shoulda known

Though I cannot forget you yet
No I cannot forget you yet
To leave my heart in death
Though I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart in death
No I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart in death
I shoulda known

Somebody Else Not Me

Now while the beat is slow
Here in your arms I sway
Now that the light is low
Something I want to say
I guess you've known it for a while
But I mean trouble
I only want to see you smile
And I burst this bubble
The hardest thing is to let go

When love is real...
Like a flower loves a bee
But I know you're meant to give yourself to someone else
Not me

And I could carry on with you
Does that sound crazy?
I think you feel the same way too
And you can't face it
The hardest thing is to let go

But it's not defeat
When you set somebody free
And I know you're meant to be yourself with someone else
Not me

Can you let go?
'Cause that's love that's real
Like a flower loves a bee
And you know you're meant to give yourself to someone else
Not me

Somebody else not me
Meant for somebody else not me
Somebody else not me

Love is Winter

Lonely draw
Sides grow dimmer
Spellbound all
I waste the hour
My love is winter
My love is lost

Silent fog
Let's pass and wither
From the cold that saw me flat
My love is winter
My love is lost

There is love enough for the both of us
There is more than prayers made to be with you
My love is lost

My love is winter
My love is lost
My love is winter

There is love enough for the both of us
There is more than prayers made to be with you

Sacred hold in my mirror
Were you told there is no rest?
My love is winter
My love is lost

There is love enough for the both of us
There is love enough
There is love
There is love enough for the both of us
There is love enough
There is love
I lost my love

Buried In the Sand

Can't say... that I was surprised...
when you broke the ties...
they were hanging by a thread..
But now
I have realized
it couldn't be the same..
coz everything has changed..

and still...
i held out my hand...
tried to pull you back...
but you were buried in the sand

I'm glad that you came along..
but here our journey ends
I say good-bye to you..
My very dear friend...

You were buried in the sand
Head buried in the sand
You were buried in the sand
Head buried in the sand
She was buried in the sand

Butt Naked (Demo)

’m sitting here butt naked with nothing between me and my shoes
I’ve tried to talk you out of it but you seem so intent on abuse
You emptied out the bank accounts you took it all you know there’s nothing more
You’ll never learn, you think it’s me, but you’re beyond all help it’s quite pathetic

How may years will it take for the dead to recover?
You’ve taken it all?
Do you still want more?
I’d give you the shirt off my back if I thought that I’d be rid of you!

TV  in the corner, but I can’t ??afford?? the warning, our child’s watching??
The air is cold and so’s the water, where’s your love now you even faltered

You never seem to work, just complaining, up all night and partying
And one day soon you’ll die in someone’s vomit, I hope you rot in it

How many years will it take for the dead to recover?
How many years will I wait for the love of another?

You’ve taken it all!
Do you still want more?
I’d give you the shirt off my back if I thought that I’d be rid of you!
You’ve taken it all!
Dishing the dirt behind my back don’t you know that you’re hurting us all?

(guitar solo)

Darkness : Revisited

In this city of people betraying each other and hiding secret agendas. I am shocked and disillusioned to believe the disgusting torment I received from 2 fake agents in old town.

The older I get, the more I miss how things were..how things were before some people went mad, how things were more stable if I had stayed a little longer to keep the balance in shape.

But what's becoming more true is that card of fate I was told, and I feel it will come and cease all that I have worked.

Trust is a forgotten factor and the innocence has been lost for many years.

I don't trust those 2 Russians who claimed many things of my apartment nor that threat I received... i posted the details on facebook.

Things were much easier when life was seeing and lived simpler, who lives for this damn drama wanting to meet new people with questionable intentions? I have a weird feeling if I had not gotten acquainted with people none of this would have happened... I should've followed my instincts from the beginning but now it's kinda late.

2013 Groovy Day

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Don't Look Back (2013)

I was jamming to songs with my british friend who never ceases to surprise me with a new tune he provides. This is the first time im actually playing drums.

I feel strained from the over bearing pressure of the hype and momentum the production has been giving me. It's also been a while since I haven't seen my beloved girlfriend also. But during the sessions, I really had a lot in my mind about how she's doing. being in a relationship when a couple's doing their own projects can be excruciating and the more im apart from my best friend, that's a major burden.

But, the show must go on and hopefully the new music will be good for the audience....