Epilogue

2030 A.D

"My father came to this city many years ago when I was but a child...
He came to destroy the corruption that ruled there.
he never returned..."

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working on a novel

im working on an autobiography ("the forgotten son")which will have a lot details, especially how I see everything with nothing holding back. i think the ending is a big giveaway but i am living it. But how I got to where i am is really because of a lot of strange/funny situations.

as i am gently drinking latte' prepared by my fiance  i told her many stories and how I ultimately ended here in europe.

there's a huge lot of interesting characters.

1) people who change your life forever and you'll never forget them
2) people who are deceiptful and lose their respect when you know their real side
3) people who like harming people because it is natural to be bad guys
4) people who are just weird, open minded, experimental to the point that they are just lost in life
5) people who are mentally disturbed
6) people who are very delusioned
7) people who are hypocritical, powerful and corrupt.

and much more. There's many good and bad elements that helped me very global all aspects of life.

word of advise

be happy

Corruption : Valor v.s Venom

As I got older I begin to realize the idealistic notions that high ranked professionals from the baby boom era seem to lecture about "honesty, integrity, transparency and justice" seems nothing more than a hogwash.

Of course during our undergrad studies we are led to believe to remain submissive, obedient and seldom question the managerial decisions of our bosses. Additionally, some institutions provide guidance on how to behave once a student heads to the "real world". Elitism, it felt powerful and right in the beginning but once everything starts to appear false, backstabbing and dishonest it is up to one to decide whether one can live with it.

After accomplishing so much in life by dodging my fate again and again I finally met "the establishment." and was offered to renounce my views on my beliefs on corporate and social responsibility. When someone starts standing up for the poor and abused from a place where its unlikely to assist, I accidentally triggered my humane sympathy toward the least fortunate and enabled a small group to focus on me.

It was then that I realized I sorta hit the jackpot but my morality was at stake. Moreover from this moment when time stood still I realized the limits that some people can help and only then I realized I was on my own to finish this quest. I was warned that I will fail... I know this warning scared most of those around me but what choice does one have if a group cannot be represented at expensive cocktail balls whilst advocating pseudo human compassion? I saw my cards many years ago and many people taught and woke a part of me that I had long lost but regained again. Perhaps the most disappointing thing I ever felt was the closest friend accept their fate despite they were betrayed at every turn, yet she still follows the path set out for herself and I will always pity her.  I'll continue to fight against my fate even though it will be in vain. Someone once told me it is idiotic, but if they know that despite there is a system and I will remain using those rights, it is the corruption that will be out of my sight that will lead the corrupt to victory. Bribery, cronyism, affiliations, bias in a court defending human rights is often a slick chance if one attempts to use reason. I've been very fortunate in my life, and saw  so many good people go who share the same vision I have for the less fortunate. It is for them that I vow to fight for their rights. I hope others will follow as I expect/calculate a corrupt person to arrange an accident for me and dismiss it either  "unexpected" or "self afflicted."

I have enough info later on to supply that if something does happen to me , it will not be my own doing. Where are the International authorities when you need them....If I defend myself I will be deemed as an inhumane trained fighter but If I dont do anything about it the media might label it as "unfortunate demise/ what could have been".

Corruption and Crime are real... and don't ever stop fighting against those forces. 

flashback

http://youtu.be/R-u4AWe0CqU :)

new beginnings and a last thought.

hard to say if this foggy weather will go, but all I can say for now is that all the weather and the city i currently reside are not the main motivation for moving.

in the years I've been in europe I met a whole bunch of people that were nice, polite, loyal, demeaning, gold-digging, double standard, saintly, naughty, slutty, prodigious , religiously zealous,casual, shy, and pure...... but above all those people there was an unforgettable person that I've been with for almost 5 years and in those years never was I able to see things so clear like so many months ago when I evolved in my logic.

These past months have been beautiful and ever changing, an ever need of moving on with life, and embracing the greatest joys of those surrounding you. But one thing is slowly waning in my mind is my friendship I had with someone who was very special but at the same time so hurtful, that even without her knowing led to the opening of a new opportunity.

I am referring to someone I considered my best friend, the one I adored for many years and received little or nothing in return but somehow I kept coming back for more. I am very sure she visits my page every once in a while how I am doing in my projects and other musings and even though I am not mentioning her name she is quite aware this passage is about her.

Was she a friend or foe in the end? That is something I have asked myself in 2010 when I woke up from an accident and she was the first person I saw in my hospital room.  I began picking up clues as to how I ended up being with someone who started to change month by month after my awakening and how she made me feel despicable and unwanted. Of course many laughable things happened in the next few years but none can compare to the extensive work she did with another person I also considered friend. Despite how sneaky,deviant, strategic, technical and how low this person had to do in order to get her mission accomplished she truly understood where I came from and in her own madness tried to "protect" me in whatever I was in at the time. Before I left my northern european home city , I left a final review w/ colleagues about the turn of events and analyzed the madness of my fallen friend. I am assertive that things would have ended either way if I had pursued my calm approach but with the transgression I saw it only sped a chapter of my life to end quicker. 

Am I thankful how things ended. Everyone got what they wanted: a person that can fully understand them and dwell splendid in common morals and values for a relationship to function great. Whether one needs a wealthy fool or a handsome photogenic brainless or simply a person with beauty and wisdom, this is an era where all things finally came to light. And so despite the unfortunate events, I am glad things are the way they are. And only those who put a lot of heart will inherit what they deserve.

It's 2013, I have seen friends come and go, gained many lively people but also tragically lost some whom I'll never forget. After living in so many places in hopes of finding a home , somewhere I can belong to I finally feel that with my new family I can sigh with relief what an honor is to have a family.